Friday, June 19, 2009

Like Daily

Like daily, today too I went to SSS1 for lunch. But today I was somehow caged with the memory of Dilip, a friend, working at dhaba, who does not have time to study, to come to me. He starts working in the morning perhaps at 8:00 and cannot be freed till 11:00 in night. I knew him when he came here at age of 12 years, I was doing MCA. Generally I used to tell him about games in computer. One day I saw him sad, I asked him, and a sad story came out of his mouth soaked in his tears. That his father had started drinking, that his mother had to work from door to door, that they had no money left and that he has come here to work. I tried to give him something, that I can, but he did not accept. Even in such position I left him, left for the job at a multinational, but that was more of showcasing myself in others almirah.

I came back at this place, I found him working for another dhaba, now aged 15 years, not knowing what he could do, not knowing what he was doing. I asked him to give sometime to me, so that I could give him what could give him better tomorrow. Few days he tried and finally rejected my help, my idea of educating him. He never told me why, why he rejected, why he left me questioning myself. My heart still pounds when I remember him. His face is no different than others of his age. All the faces that encounter me are questions to me. They daily asks me questions and a lot of questions and I am still finding the answer if I may. What can I do, what was my mistake, why only I am thinking of such things so emotionally, why not the dhaba owners think in the same way? But the god has generated an environment to see such things to happen and left me bearing the burden of all such thoughts. How cruel is the god, to me and to them. He didn’t give me power and money to them.

Sunday, June 07, 2009


This is first time I am writing any clarification, but I think its worth writing here, simply because its my blog. And I am free to write here. Before today the word bakwaas and junk for me are very good. I took them from the mail groups in companies where people write about something that may be ignored for sometime and has a evergreen effect. That means no matter when you read, it never loose its value, taste.
Sometimes, if you are wrongly taken, and words from other side are so harsh that people loose the meaning or intent of your words. I am not a novelist or a literary person, who may write the things in very beautified manner. But still I hope there may be ways for me to put the things in a manner that has scope of discussion rather than passing offensive remarks to others.
To me what JNU_SCSS or jnujems meant?
Answer to this may be simple to me, but i cannot think that a group can go with what one wants. Still I am writing for my sake only. When this idea put before me, I was very happy. It gave me a way where people can share their knowledge, where we can share the positive energy, energy that I never felt in the corporate environment.
I feel a positive energy when there is something, a alumni meet, a intra- or inter- techfest. A lot of thanks to the people who managed them and I wish for all those who will manage them in future.
Since we love JNU, it was an opportunity before us where we can built up a relationship of trust with newcomers. Life is big and so our family must be so that we can extend hand of friendship where we can work for us as in case of Shiv Prakash Tiwari. I thank all those people who put their best effort to get him back as he was.
As, we are expanded into variety of jobs. We need here to nurture multifaceted performers. So that our people may not find it difficult to en root themselves wherever they want. People like Aditya (working for Climate Change Project), Deven(working for embedded systems, perhaps only one of us who is working in the field) who at least thrown a mail to share their ideas. I thank them.
I knew whats the pain a person feel when he is dropped in an environment where more than him a business is important. Your ideas tend to be thrown into bins. Just because you have lesser alumni strength, just because they haven't heard your insti's name.
All this is in process and people like Amit have put fare effort to institutionalize all these things.
But now the time has changed from previous few incidences we have come to a point where we have started, we lead the group to a path where alumni group was, a dead, non interactive, job posting group. I soon may have to abandon it, if the situation continues.
Although the mail is not meant for anybody and still for everybody in SC&SS, JNU, whom I love most and I am indebted to it for providing me a good family of friends.

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